..u cant explain

i cant explain why so many things happen in my life....which i am sure is no different with most of us....u try for something like no man's business but fail....and then you can do two things..try harder or forget about it..in both scenarios I have seen two things happening..i getting what i always wwanted..and i not getting what i wanted..

now if u r confused..read again else continue..:)

what i want to bring to your attention is a little observation (still under study by me) that the outcomes in our lives are not subject to how much we want them in STAND ALONE but how much we want them in the whole scheme of ALL our wants. what happens is u might say I REALLY WANT to become rich...and mean it when u say it....u might work for it LIKE CRAZY..but not become rich because deep down somewhere u also want to live a SIMPLE LIFE and your efforts are in that direction also...so when you are ... say at the age of 24 thinking of leading a simple life of a rich man...you think that you can be some1 like narayan murthy of infosys fame..simple and rich ....but actually it is very very difficult to achieve both...so what happens is that ur efforts are cancelling out at some level and you dont even realize it.......

hope u getting till here........ i know i am not very crisp in my language .. thats coz i think too much while i think what i am writing...

ok to continue........

what is needed and recommended by me (under observation again..so now legal suits please)...to find out what are the things that really matter to you REALLLY matter to you and then see contradictions in them...some will be apparent and some would require fishbone analysis to correlate.....

once these things are done then you need to either proactively develop a system to prevent cancellation of your energies for the various sets of two correlated DESIRES or you need to abandon one of the desires....

this in essence would mean working out a plan to ensure all ur efforts u HOPE is leading you to your various DESIRES actually is doing so. you have to ensure that efforts dont collide and cause an ACCIDENT.

phew...enough!!..sorry for this if u didnt appreciate it..dont blame you.. ;-)

~kash