It is my keen desire to be able to stand up at age 40 and say:
Look I am successful and happy! but i havent done things the way people asked me to or thought it is typical of successful and happy people!.. i have done it my way.. good or bad .. i have not lost myself to my dreams..
everyday in this ever so dynamic world i find myself as an alien who cannot comprehend the things around him completely.. there is a wave of 'pressure' for him to do what is WARRANTED in that moment to be good in the role he is playing. but doing that would make me NOT happy as i for some reason believe its not me.. if i do it..
in such times i dont know what special strength i get.. from where i get it .. but I am able to stand up for myself and look at people, situations and sometimes even my own desires in the eye and tell them to take a hike.. i will do it my way.. and NOT land on the highway!..
i am writing all this because i am still an optimist in life.. i believe that good happens to good.. however not that bad happens to bad ppl.. rather there are things in life NO ONE deserves.. and that is where i see god as UNFAIR.. i wish that i can aleviate someone's sorrows.. but when i contemplate that it might mean increasinig mine.. I flinch.. i hope that god will give me strength in the days to come to HOPE that all the BAD that needs to happen happens to me and others are spared of it.. (that is something i hope to achieve someday) ... but all this aside as i am digressing from my main point
as i am an optimist i believe that even doing things my way and not compromising on my values i would be able to achieve my dreams (i have lofty dreams, personal or professional...)
i am hoping that i am right because otherwise the win the victory will not be worth it.. because i wont be me while celebrating it.... i will just be a typical successful man........
this note is essentially a thank you note to my parents and family for driving some values in me (how LORD knows) that make me really proud of the way I look at things... some think of it to be archaic but that is ok .. and i am proud of many such people also....
every man to himself..
i shall not change.. because i know i am something.. and also that the path I am following is the only sure shot way of keeping a comparatively blank register of regrets in life.. because as I said.. what to morrow has in store for u even today doesnt know.. so treat every moment as your last and have not regrets.. u might not have time later to even express them .. forget correcting them..
Tuesday, October 17, 2006
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Nice :)
Tell me something... are u writing on these topics or experiences with the thought in mind that it's for people to read.... or is it a mode of talking to yourself?
i am not writing with the thought that its for people to read.. i am writing cause i think i wanna express myself and there are people who might want to read..people who relate to what i write.. btw why the question?
i share your feeling but could not have written it better.. i am sure u will get to hear that "Look he is successful and happy!!" best wishes..
well expressed, dude! Tending to core .. nice!!
-Abhishek
hi.. abhishek and anon.. thank you.. i am happy this resonates with somebody around!
ps: which abhishek is this!?
Hmm interesting ... if that U ... I think we r similar in a lot of wayz ..
But really interesting thought .. Prashant
The reason i ask this question is.. more often than not in your writing.. u tend to mention about readers, what others would think reading your line etc etc.. at times it appears as if u are writing something and trying to defend your statements... it comes across as if u are trying to show how well u write.. see how clear are my thoughts... no hard feelings..
u write pretty well... no doubt about it... but one suggestion... write for YOURSELF... pen down your true and raw thoughts... not with the thought that someone would be reading it..
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